There is so much on my plate right now that I can barely breathe. But, breathe I must or I will pass out and probably die. And if I die my two cats with be forced to eat ME as they can’t work the can opener or the refrigerator. What a horrible thought and en even more horrible graphic. Actually, being me right now isn’t such a bad thing.
Seriously, I am busy as hell doing what I finally am able to concentrate on, writing and knitting. Being unemployed is not good, being broke sucks. But, I am finally doing what I have aspired to do since I was in my teens, be nappy. oops, I meant “happy,” be happy! I am a California gal, I just want to smile and be happy, no stress, no worries, pay rent, pay my bills, but be happy.
When I was a teenager and I got to peek at a film script for movie More American Graffiti and I decided then that I wanted to write. I started knitting when I was a girl, but I was bullied in middle school and high school for knitting and crocheting my own jumpers and hats. But, I kept up both as best I could do, I am basically self-taught in both fields.
Unfortunately, I never kept journals, but I wrote plays for the kids in my neighborhood, mainly to keep them off the streets and from hurting each other. When I noticed how talented the kids were and how enthused they were about being in plays I was hooked on writing. I ran away from under my mother’s apron strings at twenty-three and went to Los Angeles; back home I studied acting and fancied being a Hollywood sitcom star. Tee Vee dreams went south and I eventually returned to writing plays. I had a few successes and won minor awards in L.A., but I returned home in the 1990s just when the economy sucked and local play theaters went out of business. I could not afford to produce my own work and I did not have enough resources to help me. Unfortunately, I lost my playwright’s “mojo.”
in 2002 I discovered my mother was ill and two years later I placed her into an “assisted living” facility. It was then that I discovered a literary book voice I never knew I had. I started writing a book of poems; a memoir for mom and short stories including a book about a man slash cat, Spoiled Beyond Recognition. I am currently writing my first full-length fiction novel, Girl With the Upside-Down Guitar; A fiction novel inspired by one of the author’s favorite movies, 1950 classic, “All About Eve,” starring Bette Davis and Celeste Holm. “Girl With the Upside-Down Guitar,” is about sex; rock & roll; lies; adultery; blind ambition; extreme narcissism; delusion; and the corruption and manipulation of social media. The book is about one woman, a selfish ingenue obsessed with fame and fortune.
“Draft” cover version, 2013
And, here I am, years later after having taken a “leap of faith” to focus on my literary and crafts life. I am focused on me, not the dutiful daughter, sister or friend. I am finally doing what makes me happy. I am busy with blogs and websites to facilitate, employment to seek and a social life; I am a bit of a shut-in, although, the internet is helping me become more sociable.
What is the point to this blog? Well, I am not one for tooting my own horn, so to state, but I must admit for a old broke heffa with two elderly no-job-having pussies, depleted bank accounts and an expired bus pass, I am not doing too poorly. I am doing everything on my own which is very difficult, but I am doing it with the push and determination I never thought I had. At a time when most people at mid-life are winding down and craving retirement in their second throng, I am just getting my life started! I feel like my mojo is in place and ready to help me “get it crackin’!” More important, I am proud of myself for not giving up. I almost did give up, but I am back on track because my head and my heart know what they want. With a firm sense of fortitude and courage I am ready to take on my dreams full throttle!
And there it is. And here I am. And away I go; best seller; massive sales, fans; fame. Yeap, I do believe being me right now is a good thing. I do believe I am ready for my close-up.
See ya soon! LDS